Seasonal Depression Song Lyrics

Okay
I'm lying on the ground and I'm not making a sound
Is he dead or alive, will he ever come around
Cause I'm treading through the water, yeah I'm homeward bound
Under the shroud I'm really watching clouds
And I'm happy as can be until I'm not, do you feel me?
Flapping like a clam, comfortable who I am
Wondering if life will stop doing me dirty
Flirty and full of the lines but not this time
Giving up on the game, surrender into mine
I'm turtling and hurting all the ones who would raise me up
But I hate this stuff, and it's time to run
And it's fisticuffs and it's getting rough
And if you've had enough, time to talk it up
Time to back it up, put the money up front
And going all the way back to the beginning I've just given up

And I'm dying to seize the day
And I'm trying to be that way