Borderline Song Lyrics

I look past all the flashing lights
Drive through, ignore the warning signs
When things blow up I close my eyes
And shake it off as if it's justified

Wash the shame down with another drink
I get high I don't wanna overthink
My body's shaking, my head is weak
But I'm too afraid to leave
Life goes on new day same show
'Cuz if I change I could feel more low
So I do another encore, one more when it hurts the most

Calling it quits I don't wanna admit
That I'm, that I'm
Stuck in the cracks and I'm going down fast tonight, tonight
Calling it quits when I gotta make up
My mind, my mind
No going back 'cause I'm already on the borderline

I'm in purgatory